Buried trauma… Trigger warning… (animals and death)
So I am out on a walk and I was gonna walk streets but something pulled me up to the hills instead so I went into nature… (I was trying not to get my new shoes dirty) As I was climbing a hill I looked down to see a stink bug on its back clearly in its last moments of...
I’m back….
It's been a minute, but here I am. I had to take a hiatus, because I am human and though I may appear fine on the outside...shit's going on inside that I can't always explain. If I could say ONE thing about myself that I am proud of... it's that I SHARE!! I share it...
And the censorship continues…
Well, I wish more people knew about my blog since this is where I will be posting my thoughts until I'm out of Facebook Jail. Can someone PLEASE take me back to 2019 when I could be sarcastic with people and actually LAUGH? This last two years is a complete...
Seasonal relationships
This weekend I went to Joshua Tree. I jumped in on my daughters trip with her friend, because I have been wanting to camp and this was my chance. I didn't have to be WITH them, but they didn't mind having me around, so we had a great weekend of exploring,...
Ringing in the New Year 2022 the right way!
Here it is... that moment of self reflection on the last day of the year. As everyone is looking forward to the New Year, I believe it's the same every year that we hope the crap of the year will be left behind and the new will rise like a phoenix, out of the ashes...
Seasons of Parenting
This post was first written for a Mom's group. It got a way bigger response than I was expecting, so I'm posting it here in its original form... Hey Moms...I have been wanting to write for a while, because I see things on here and I feel you... I hear you... I have...
All kids are at risk
Today my heart was broken. I learned from my daughter (18) that a classmate of hers passed away. It was not suicide, and I don't want to speculate. She's just ... gone. The second my daughter told me, I flashed back to the days of elementary school, where I...
Life in theory….
With all that is going on in the world, I can't tell you how many people are disappointed in life. Not just their life, but life in general. I get it, and I feel it. With political divide growing, a never ending pandemic, crazy weather in Texas that has never...
Are we creating a society of bullies?
I'm so disturbed... I was just on a page where an unsuspecting woman was asking advice of where to live on a budget in our area (Southern California, near the beach). True, her budget was WAY smaller than our area dictates, but the barrage of negativity from locals...
This is your story
You ever stop and think about how crappy this last year has been? I'm pretty sure if you have a pulse, you have. Every day feels like another day closer to "hopefully soon this will be behind us..." (And just in case you have been under a rock, of course I am talking...
I want to take a moment and talk about projection…
If you saw my video from the other day, I got ripped in to (in a private Mom's group) because I mentioned that once upon a time I pushed the mattress out of my kids room... And this did NOT set well with her, she didn't hold back in any way shape or form...I was in...
You know…there are days I wonder how I got where I am.
Life is a long road of twists and turns and ups and downs and sometimes ad nauseam... but we persevere. Growing up in my house there was a lot of chaos. I would like to say it was a peaceful upbringing, but that would be a lie...and I'm not a liar. I have four...
Okay, so today was kind of an exciting day…
The last few weeks have been one step forward, two steps back. I started walking regularly to work off "the Covid 19" then my back went out. I have spent the last week sitting mostly (okay so that feels like five steps back). Today I was able to get out and walk 3:16...
Every child shines in their own way…
I was in my kitchen tonight, glancing at the pictures of both my girls that I have pinned up from over the years.. As I start writing this, I feel like I could write a book on this subject alone, but will do my best to keep it local to my two girls... Children...
I just want you all to know how my brain works.
I don't need any pity...just take a ride with me...The other day I posted my anniversary...21 whole years married to the same guy....only it's actually 22....and it only took me a few days to realize it... I'm pretty sure my brain tried to wipe out 2020. I'm gonna...
Here is how I am choosing to appreciate 2021 …
Today was mostly a quiet day, my back is tweaked, I did some editing and I took a short walk and did the dishes while Chris decided to grab fixings for dinner since he has a new cooking toy... (a Teppan table that fits on the BBQ outside.) He asked if anyone will be...
Okay, so anyone who knows me knows that this Covid crap has thrown me sideways…
gaining the Covid 10, then 15, then 19 and more from there but I quit counting. This week I decided to get out and walk as much or little as possible but just freaking WALK!! It's amazing to me the emotional roller coaster these last 10 months have been...It was, for...
Binge Watching
I spent the whole day on my couch binge-watching the Queen's Gambit!! I haven’t spent a day like this in a LONG time and usually only when sick (which I am not) and forced to stay down ... Chess brings up memories of my dad, even though I have never played ... WOW -...