Well, I’m not starting the day off on the right foot that’s for sure.  I’m all ready to call a do over and I’m the only one up!!  But that’s part of the problem.  Chris was up briefly – he’s been sick.  He started letting the dogs out and was going to shut the door.  I told him if he lets the dogs out, he HAS to feed them.  Whoever lets the dog out needs to know this.

He took offense, because he felt like I was yelling at him.  And maybe on some level  I was, because those dogs have been left hungry more than once!!!  Apparently I’m not training everyone right.

The girls have been woken up more than once and it is not going on 7:30 and they are still in bed; which means they have less than half hour to get their buns up, get dressed and make their lunch (because I am not making it for them).

I guess it’s no wonder I’m sounding grumpy.  It seems that just about every 3am, I am awake.

Have you ever seen Amityville Horror???  The guy woke up every night at 3:15.   I can’t help but feel there is some reason to my 3am wakeup?

I wouldn’t mind if I could go back to bed; but if you have read my blog more than once, you know that some strange clarity comes over me and every problem we have and every thing I forgot comes rushing forward, raising my heart rate an preventing me from going back to bed.  It really sucks.

So here I sit, apparently yelling at everyone in the house and creating enemies by the second.  Yay me.

My day is a busy one; I put stuff off that should have been done on Saturday and if I don’t start delivering, people will be sad at me.  I can’t have that.

Halloween is just days away and I have nothing to wear.  I have plenty in my arsenal; but I wanted something new.  I had ideas of going burlesque, but no real plans.  So at this time, I got nuthin.

And sadly; my 3am clarity doesn’t lend itself to the fun side of life; only that which uncomfortably keeps me up!  (insert sad face here).

Halloween is truly my favorite holiday.  I used to go all out and make my costumes which would take months.  Now…..I peter out and get sad with myself on Halloween because I have nothing and I realize I wasted the time I could have made something.

As I write, I cannot believe it is October 29th.   Where on earth did the time go????  Weren’t we just talking about resolutions?  And making summer plans…..   Geezzzz

It makes me feel like I don’t take proper advantage of time.

But when I think about what I get busy with, I totally understand why I haven’t had time to make a costume (and I won’t buy one, because they are so cheesy.)

Yesterday I went to a kids Halloween party at our friends house and the mom was wearing a Pirate costume she very creatively threw together.  I was in awe that she took a simple skirt and pinned it up to look more pirate-like.  I’m not that creative…..

Today I will ponder it more and see what I can come up with.  I don’t want to waste precious time, but I also realize I’m pretty short on it to create a costume from scratch.

But it doesn’t have to be all or nothing.  I may have to compromise which is fine – but I’m going to get rid of my ‘ditch it’ mentality and move on.  I have things to do!!!

Happy Monday