I’m hoping I got it out of my system, but I’m not sure yet.

Yesterday I fell victim to being the only one in the house…..with about 20lbs of Halloween Candy……You can only guess how my day went.

Like a kid who spent hours collecting, I sat down to the bags and sifted through for my favorites.  I knew it was a slippery slope and that I would be in big trouble if I even had one piece.  So I didn’t.  I had about 20.  I’m not proud, but I lost complete control.

What happens to our minds that we KNOW what the good choice should be, but we go in the opposite direction?  Why in the world would we choose destruction over making a better choice?

It happens all the time.  ANd I don’t get it.  We can rationalize until the cows come home but then there is some irrational thought or desire that comes floating by…..and we grab it.

I know I am not the only one.

I was reading at book about food and food addictions.  There is actually a formula that creates major desire when it comes to food.  There is something about the combination of butter and sugar that sets off the reward triggers in our brain and makes us lose a bit of control.

So as I sat in front of the chocolate, my desire to be rewarded overtook me and I went crazy.

The problem is the regret later.  I KNOW what chocolate does to my body. And I’m already not happy with the state it is in.  So why oh why did I go there???

On some level I think it’s a “screw it” mentality.  It’s not going to get worse because of this ONE DAY!

But it is.  And it did.  My mental and emotional state was just diminished by making a decision that defeated my purpose of trying to get and stay fit.  It literally chipped away at the trust in myself.  And today  I am turning it around.

I made a commitment to some friends and we are going to go forward and support each other.

Last night I didn’t want to walk.  But I knew I had to start turning it around, so I called a friend who was able to meet me.  When I’m feeling weak, I know I am never alone.   And I know there are others who need my help yet are too afraid to ask.  So I enlisted their help.

I’m not thrilled about my decision because it means I have to actually do something.  And I’m not in the mood to do something, which is exactly why I enlisted help.

We aren’t always strong enough to do things on our own.   So asking for help is a good thing.  If we could do it alone, we would do it alone.

And right now, I can’t.

I will be enlisting help from anyone I can find.  Halloween will not get the best of me.   As this is only the beginning of Merry Thanksgive-0-ween, it will be an uphill battle.  But sometimes the best challenges are the hardest to achieve.  Not easy; but worth it.

Don’t let Merry Thanksgive-o-ween get the best of you this year.  Take a bit of control and be happy you did.

Happy Friday