Today was a wierd day. I have, for the last few weeks, done my best to get in a vacation. The only actual vacation I took was an overnight in Julian. But it was a great mental break, one I was desperately in need of, and grateful to have!
The past few weeks I have struggled to get back on track. The end of the school year and first weeks into summer are so heavy with events and obligations that I find myself scratching my head wondering when it’s all going to slow down. Truth be told, I have been asking that question for about the last 5 years now.
Could be that I have children and trying to grow my business. Could be time management. Could be I’m disorganized. Could be all of the above.
But I’m sitting here today, literally reflecting on all the bad news I have heard lately. None of it related to me, but I find myself affected by it. There have been a couple of unexpected deaths which have made me take pause. Some funky situations with friends that leave them scratching their head or wanting to take action (multiple friends with multiple different issues).
And as I sit at my desk trying to keep my “To Do” list in check, what I find myself wondering the most is how important all of this stuff really is, in the end?
Before you go freaking out thinking I’m questioning my mortality….I do that pretty much every day….well, every morning, usually around 3am when I wake up in a panic that my life is going horribly wrong and I won’t possibly accomplish all I need to (which somehow diminishes the second I wake up).
I’m simply talking about putting things into proper perspective.
Fast paced life throws things out of perspective fairly quickly. Before the end of the school year, I found myself out of balance, telling my kids NO NO NO to every little thing they asked, because, “I don’t have time!”
But today, I realized that I can actually carve out time every single day for at least one special moment with my kids!!! Today it was dinner at Ruby’s old fashioned Diner, to celebrate Ruby’s 93rd birthday (classic burger and fries for $1.93…now THAT is perspective). It was busy as expected, and the girls didn’t want to wait. I told them to just give it a minute and see what happens. Within 10 minutes we had gotten a table and had alread ordered a shake to start! This was a big deal, because I never order shakes and I never let my kids order shakes, because it’s too much (food and money). But today we squeaked it in.
We had a few moments of conversation that we wouldn’t have had if I had said, “I don’t have time”. I realized how quickly my munchkins are growing and how quickly I will be alone every single day when they leave for college. (cuz Hubs will still be working too).
I try not to take things for granted. So though my heart is sad for the turmoil around me, I’d like to take comfort in the fact that it reminds me to really appreciate what I have and to seize every special moment I can! Life can change in an instant. Let’s just hope the “instants” before, lead to something great!!!
Make the most of every day! Because in the end….today is all you have!
Mom of two grown ass girls and married to a short guy who is funny and cooks really well! I’m a photographer by trade, so you can say I’m a bit “peopley”. My favorite sessions are the one on ones where I just get to chat and find out about my clients. I’m blessed with what I get to do every day! Blessed by the support of my husband and kids, and blessed by the ongoing support and encouragement of my friends who are always lifting me up.