Pain is invisible…..

It’s amazing what you can put up with, when you have to!

About a week ago, I turned wrong and my rib went out in my back.  As soon as it happened, I felt it, and to breathe, or inhale deeply was painful.  Forget Yawning!  I couldn’t inflate my lungs enough to get a good yawn.  We are talking pain!  Sometimes, this works itself out. But in my case, it wasn’t.  I went to the chiropractor, and though it relieved about 50% of the pain, it never went away.

So I decided to go for a massage and though that helped in some areas, it seemed to exacerbate the pain I had in my lower right back!  To say I’m a mess would be an understatement!

I’ve been in constant pain for the last week and a half and there is nothing I can do about it until I see my chiropractor tomorrow.  I’m counting the hours until I see him, to help relieve some of this pain!

I know I need to strengthen  my back and adjust my work station at home…..and probably get a new bed, because I suspect ours isn’t firm enough.  But until all that happens, I am waiting in the balance!!!

It is what it is, so I go on with my life!  There is no use complaining about it, because no one really cares and even if they did, there is nothing you can do about it!

I have been working a lot on stretching, and talking to people about ways to avoid these injuries.

The truth is this; when I was working out, I was strong and these things rarely happened.  But now, that I have become lazy due to my stomach issues and as a result, my body is falling apart.

It sucks to suffer.  But I think it is worse to realize that I  KNOW I don’t have to and see that constant reminder for how far I have fallen!

I have heard a lot about Yoga and I already know that Pilates is amazing.  But the bottom line is I need to make my body stronger!

The other day I was talking to my husband about working out.  He said that he is just going to continue walking and save money on the gym membership as he hasn’t really been going anyways.  I told him that if he wants to sustain his weight loss,the gym – and weights are what would be his best bet!  Afterall, MUSCLE is what burns calories.  Fat just sits there!  If you don’t build that muscle, then you aren’t burning fat!!

So, it looks like we are both on a bit of a journey.

Life is a constant self discovery and readjustment.  Ducking and weaving as it were.  I want to recover from this pain.  It’s just not worth being lazy to feel this pain.  And to know it’s avoidable, well then shame on me!!!

I really liked when I was feeling strong.  I stood taller, I made way better food choices and I carried myself with much more pride.  Lately I feel like I’m doing my best to hide from everything.  I hate the way my clothes fit and I hurt!

Finding the motivation to turn it around is going to take some effort.  It’s a slippery slope.  But it IS possible!

Maybe it will take this pain to make me realize just how important it is to take care of ones self!!!

Happy Monday!