Seasonal relationships

This weekend I went to Joshua Tree.  I jumped in on my daughters trip with her friend, because I have been wanting to camp and this was my chance.  I didn’t have to be WITH them, but they didn’t mind having me around, so we had a great weekend of exploring, sightseeing, talking, shopping, stargazing and just … being…
It was a lot of time in the car, and as I was solo in my car (behind them), I had a lot of time to reflect.  This trip brought me a great perspective. With all of the stress that is going on in the world I am always brought back to myself in nature.
I have realized that self-care is most important and that includes emotional self-care.
It is so easy to get caught up in the global issues in this world but the truth is at an individual level many of these worries will never come to impact our lives. So to worry about them is just wasting precious moments in your life.
In this past year I have made some hard choices which includes relationships that were impacting my mental health. That is very hard for me to disclose because even though I am happy to share most of my life, there are things I try to keep guarded close to my chest. But the truth is some relationships do have seasons for a reason. That may even include family members at times.
We put pressure on ourselves to try and maintain these relationships because we feel we have to. But when you feel your soul is getting eaten away by staying in these relationships, it’s time to move on.
Mental health is extremely important and if you are not healthy mentally it can affect your physical body. I have learned so much about myself in the last year and a half and realize that boundaries are exquisitely important. But learning to trust yourself is probably the most important thing. It is OK to let go and move on without guilt if it means self-preservation.
And though this sounds very dramatic, that’s not my intention. My intention is simply to let you know … it’s okay to Realize if you need to make the call. Give yourself that permission…that respect for yourself.
And no this is not about my husband, we are fine, and I am even keeping my children. I feel this post has been a long time coming and I hope that it helps somebody.
My goal this year is to come back to myself and be the best me that I can be because if I am not my best and I don’t have anything else to offer anybody and that is not who I want to be

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