So, it would appear I missed a day! First thing this morning I got a question posed to me; “I was just curious how you felt about missing day?”
I don’t know why this question put me in a bad mood; because frankly I stated not long ago that I would not guarantee and “every day entry” anymore. My life is very busy and there are times I feel like I’m forcing myself to write and the ending result is nothing I’m very proud of.
Writing is sometimes forced and if you are a writer under contract then you are good at sucking it up and forcing something out.
But when it comes to writing for me, I don’t want to be ‘forced’ to write every day. I have an estimated reading group of 30 people a day. And out of those; only one inquired. I should feel lucky I got that one!!!
I never tried to reach a mass market. I’m not sure I appeal to the masses and to be honest, I don’t think I would want to try! So this blog is completely for me and about me and my stream of consciousness that hits the ‘page’ when I feel like writing!! And my goal is simply to make anyone feel like they are not alone. That is why I write.
When I got the question this morning, I read it in a judgemental way. I’m sure that is not the way it was intended; but growing up Catholic does something to a girl. It puts you on the defensive every time you do something wrong. And if you are Catholic, you were born with sin and therefore, you are screwed from the get go!
On some level, I’m flattered that I was even asked. I mean my gosh; someone noticed my absence. But in truth it wasn’t the first time.
But what I realize is sometimes it’s how the questions or wording is posed to us will make a big difference in how we respond. After all; it’s not what we say, but how we say it!?
I have found this true for myself as well as others!! I offend people daily with my abrupt tone. I don’t mean to; but when I’m talking to people my brain is all about getting it out there and being done with it. Finesse is not always on my side.
But either way, I am flattered that someone noticed my absence for the day; however I bear no guilt. I had a nice day off with my family and I wouldn’t take a second of it back!! Those days are precious and rare.
My blog is just an extension of my thought process when something happens to me!
So I may miss a day here or there! And if I do, I assure you, I will feel fine about it. I feel crappy in other areas of my life; this space will not be one of them!
The other day I blogged about anxiety and to be honest, I wanted that blog to resonate for a while. It’s an important subject, not to be followed lightly with how I went and watched a dance competition.
So, if you missed my blog yesterday, I am thankful that you noticed.
And every day I am thankful if anyone stops by to read my blog. You certainly don’t have to. But if you do, I hope you take something good away from it!
That’s all I got for now!
Happy Sunday!
Mom of two grown ass girls and married to a short guy who is funny and cooks really well! I’m a photographer by trade, so you can say I’m a bit “peopley”. My favorite sessions are the one on ones where I just get to chat and find out about my clients. I’m blessed with what I get to do every day! Blessed by the support of my husband and kids, and blessed by the ongoing support and encouragement of my friends who are always lifting me up.