I realized there is a pattern with me this time of year.  I always feel like I’m gonna get caught with my pants down, so I buy stuff hoping I’ll use it and every year, I end up with tons of extra stuff that goes no where.

I just realized this yesterday….  How sad.

I go into the season just feeling dread.    Then I have a few manic episodes, get overwhelmed, make stupid decisions and don’t follow through with them.

Am I alone in this???

I’m thinking about the stuff I got which doesn’t have a home until I assign it; and usually what happens is I tuck it away somewhere and forget about it and find it in January or March.

I can’t be trusted, I tell you!!

Maybe that is why I can’t stand the season.  Because I can’t appropriate my time to organize and follow through?  Who knows?

I just know that I have felt this feeling before and I don’t like it.

The funny thing is, it’s not even December 1.  I feel like I’m behind in our decorations; and I can’t find a date that I have time to go through all the boxes?  It’s kind of nuts.

The last two days I have gone to stores; they are packed with people and it takes twice as long to get anything done.

So, as I’m analyzing the season, I’m realizing my pattern and I’m going to have an intervention with myself.  I would like to actually like this season, but realizing what exactly is happening is the first step to changing it.

This is the life of a disorganized person.  It isn’t pretty but it’s mine.

Happy Friday