Every feel conflicted???

I seriously have nothing to contribute today; I’m hoping something will come to me soon.  I’m supposed to go into school and do my reading group, but I haven’t even read the book, so I’m basically fired for the day or I have to bluff my way through it.
As I have given my reading group much flack in doing their assignments, I would be remiss (not to mention a bad role model) if I didn’t do the assignment myself.  Does anyone know how to speed read?  Or was that whole thing a lie?

I had to reschedule a session from this morning because my equipment is failing me.  Kind of like I’m failing my students; but what are you going to do?

My goal is the be the best I can be; but how can that be when I don’t have time to put in the best effort?  I’m sitting here struggling to decide to to best be a business person, when I don’t have the tools, because I am an artist and I can’t be burdened with the other side of things!  I’m constantly in my head about how to help someone else out, and in the meantime I’m putting my own self and family on the line and it’s absolutely ridiculous.

So basically, I’m sitting here conflicted in about 20 different thoughts and my first instinct is to go back to bed.  But in the end, I will speed read the book, throw on some makeup, buy the albums I can’t afford, because in the end they are a great deal and it’s a good business move if I put them to use for the purposes intended instead of some family project that will never get done because I simply don’t have the time…..

Welcome to my world…..