I have realized that much of my life is squeezing something in.  I swear some days I feel like Ella of Frell from Ella Enchanted.

I just had a conversation with a friend yesterday who said, “NO” is a complete answer.  But for some reason, it’s not a huge part of my vocabulary.  Once something is said, it becomes part of my schedule, which is probably why my schedule ends up getting so full all the time.  I need to practice a little more restraint, however more often than not, the things that come up are in my opinion, “do or die”.

Maybe that’s just me putting extra pressure on myself, but it hasn’t killed me yet to do them, so I guess whatever is happening is working.  The only problem is I am bone tired all the time.

This morning, I got a call that something is going on that I should have known about.  And we did talk about it; but I never heard any follow-up details.  It would be so easy to say I can’t, but I have been looking forward to this so it’s going to happen!!!

My brain is already in the works of planning and my adrenaline is already rushing!  I remember the words of Richard before shooting the Red Carpet last month; “Do something out of your comfort zone EVERY day!”.  He was right. I have been pushing myself a bit here and there and though it is uncomfortable, I feel myself actually wanting  more for myself, which is what we should all want!

I have written about complacency before, and I think it is more a disease than anything else.  When we become complacent, we stop challenging ourselves and we stop growing and learning.

I really don’t want to stop growing and learning.  I dated a couple of people (years ago in my other lifetime) who I couldn’t see a future with because they were content in what they had.  One was content and peaceful about it while another was content, because he didn’t see that he could go farther.

When we succeed at something we didn’t know was possible, it causes us to ask questions about what else we can do.  If we aren’t asking ourselves that question, then we have become complacent.

Some people strive for complacency and that is just fine for them.  I feel that I can become more and my goal is to work through the wall of fear that consumes me every day, thanks to my anxiety!!!

Today I will be surrounded by about 10 people while I do a maternity session on the beach.  One of them is a very accomplished photographer from LA.  You don’t think I’m feeling pressure with that looming over me???

I could focus on my fear; or I can realize what I am capable of and how to put these 10 people to work for me to help make this the most amazing maternity session EVER!!!

And though I know there is a chance I will have a few blips; my goal is to capture the beauty of this moment so my expectant mother will have years of joy when she looks back at these pictures.  I’m really excited for this opportunity and if I wasn’t Ella of Frell, I would have said no and stayed in my comfort zone.

But instead, I’m going to be witnessing the love of this women surrounded by her very best friends.  And I will get to document a life in the making.

If that makes me a little uncomfortble…I’m okay with it!

Happy Sunday!